Okay so now that everything is official I can say that we are moving… again. When Matt and I first moved to Florida back in 2008 is was an easy call. We were fresh out of college and had no kids. Sunny skies and warm beaches?! Yes Sir! It was easy. Sure, we missed family, but we were on an adventure. Slowly though that adventure turned into a life. We no longer saw Florida as a place to go on vacation. We no longer saw Florida as simply sunny skies and warm beaches (though it in fact does have those lovely things). We found “home” in the sunshine state and felt a sense of belonging.
Fast forward a few years to 2011. We had our daughter in June and I was missing my family quite a bit. I felt like we were suppose to move back home now that we had a kid. That it was what you did. You went away, had your fun, had a kid and went back home. Just one problem. “Home” up north didn’t feel like home anymore. Of course it was fantastic not having to fly or drive to see our family, but a place where we once felt like we belonged left us feeling like we didn’t fit in. We fought it because in reality we WANTED to live near family. We wanted to feel at peace and make a home here.
It was like God kept saying, okay well I guess just let me know when you’re done with all of this and then I’ll show you where I want you. We thought maybe it was the house we were in. We moved. Nope not it. We looked to move to another town. Not it. We moved from in the country to in town. Again not it. We felt like our life was kind of on pause while we were trying to figure this thing out – and yet time kept on passing us by.
We felt the pull back from the time we moved, but didn’t want any of that. We wanted to be near family and that was that. Even when this opportunity was presented to us we wanted to fight it. We honestly didn’t want it to be the right place for us, because that meant giving in to moving. We’ve done A LOT of praying. We don’t a lot of talking and done a lot of thinking about trusting God.
We are nervous, as we would be with any decision. This time it isn’t just Matt and I. We have two children who we are making this decision for. It hands down is likely the hardest decision we’ve ever made. And yet… it feels like it’s the right one. It’s only hard because as humans we are emotional.
Even though we are nervous, we are also very excited. We are headed to a place that we do feel like God has called us and to a place we feel we belong. We can’t wait to jump in! Frequent flier programs were created for a reason, and we plan on making use of them
We’re tired of moving and want to settle in. Now we just need to let God do that for us.